haha, i read cheryl's blog a while ago and she had this "5facts about me you might/might not know about" thing, so because 1) i read her blog and 2) i have no life, imma do it.

so.

5facts about me you might/might not know about

1.
(eff, i can't think of anything)

okay, erm, i think i have lost my ability to worry properly. like, as of RIGHT NOW, there is this suppressed/compressed feeling in my chest due to the fact that the o's are in 16 days (according to jacq), but i am here doing this. i keep thinking i have more time. and i keep telling myself that the o's will be easier than all the papers i have been doing. i keep telling myself there are stupider people out there. i keep telling myself that in the end, i will survive the o's and i will get into ACJC.

2.
i can feel my heartbeat at all times. and sometimes, i like to stop and press my thumb against my wrist to count the number of times my heart beat per minute. except i don't time myself so i just end up counting, in a very trance-like and hypnotic way. and if i don't move and flip my hair to one side, i can see the strands moving with my heartbeat. dum. dum. dum. it makes me feel very alive, yet at the same time, like i'm perpetually nervous.

3.
i like my hair long and i think it can be longer. i know people think my hair is too long, but i have thought about it. i won't ever cut more than two cm at one go. or i will run home and cry. my hair is my life. if you cut my hair as a prank, or simply because you are possessed, i will scream and shout and cry like I'M possessed. i really think so. please, don't try.

4.
i can't squeal about guys properly. as in, zac efron, joe jonas and kimi raikkonen. i think they're really cute and good-looking, but i can't SQUEAL. like the way sze squeals about the JoBros or jacq about her lovelife or avril about jensen ackles. i cannot. it feels unnatural. i don't know why either.

5.
i like to expect the unexpected. like when i board the bus, i scan the whole bus and basically look at everybody before anybody looks at me. and then i prepare myself for any possible situation that can possibly happen. for example, i might secretly plan how i'm going to pick myself up if i fall down in the most embarrassing wat ever. or i might think about what to do if a guy picks me up. or how to respond if i realised the man sitting beside me is a vampire. or secretly think to myself "if there's a mind reader in this bus, HAH, i know your secret." stuff like that. which is why life is sometimes very exciting to me- simply because i get so caught up in these little daydreams of my own. this way, i prepare myself for both disappointments and pleasant surprises. i can tell myself "yay!" or i can tell myself "i knew it." or i can tell myself "i don't care." it makes life so much easier, really. that's probably why i'm happy most of the time.

i will tag anybody who feels like doing this. or anybody who is willing to. i bet people will read this during their break of mugging and then just go back to mugging while i just wasted half an hour typing this out. i can't stand-- NEVERMIND. audrey is a happy girl.

who actually gets annoyed pretty easily, contrary to popular belief. i won't tell you when and you won't know why.
imagine me smiling mysteriously as i clumsily attempt to walk backwards and fade myself from your view.