i'm such a freak. six hundred over posts. and i used to SCREAM IN ELATION at my three hundredth post. ...stupid.

HOWEVER, this means that i WILL NOT CONFORM TO A XANGA. or LJ. haha i have accounts in both but they don't survive for long. LJ-- maybe. jr__nal after the o's is freaking tempting. the people there are really nice. even the sucky ones get "good job!" or "excellent for your first time!". TACT. me likes.

anyway, i've finished Breaking Dawn. and i feel ambivalent.

i was working on andrenaline the WHOLE FREAKING TIME i read it. my heart never stopped beating faster than normal. to the extent that it felt normal. only that i knew it wasn't. i swear Stephenie Meyer rocks. she surprises me alot. and despite all the gross fanfiction stories, she still manages to make her story hers.

but annoyed. because her plot is so similar to MINE! okay, my fanfiction idea. it's extremely gross and disturbing. i can't even say she stole my idea because i'm all the way here and she's all the way there. the thing is? PEOPLE CAN JUST SAY I HAVE NO ORIGINALITY. win lorh, win. you publish the book but i publish on fanfiction.net. WIN.

haha okay, i'm not mad at her or anything. just mildly upset at how Eclipse and Breaking Dawn has details so disturbingly similar to mine. and i thought i was going to pen some epic fanfic that would garner thousands of reviews and finally defeat the stupid whatsherface with the Lights, Camera, Heartbreak!. not saying that it isn't good. i just haven't read it.

so here i am. waiting for my sister as she finishes it up. just printed english, which made me wonder why i'm being assigned such homework when i can spend the time studying. prelims make everything seem like a waste of time. like, everything. but church. :)

gargh. PRELIMS. i hate you, prelims. i'm going to pon friday. GOING FULL BLAST FROM THEN ON. coffee every night. i don't care if i have to drink my dad's gross coffe powder mix. as long as it does the trick. staying past midnight every single day-- OH MY EYES. like 2.5 cm isn't small enough. sucks. and my VOICE. memorising is gross.

stay positive, audrey! if you get past this, you are allowed to
1) sleep non stop for one week
2) secretly update your ff
3) go out ONLY for class party and my birthday
4) build up your foundation all over again.

o levels, i will defeat you. i will be prepared. i will get into acjc. i will trust in the Lord. and when the time comes, i will thank Him.

I WILL.