okay, not exactly emo. just... disappointed? haha, i don't know. there's no way i can rephrase this feeling with tact. i know what it is, and i feel it somewhere to the left of my chest.

partly because the phone call ended, followed by msn conversations. it's like going to a party and dancing your worries away, but when you're still on a high, the party ends. it leaves you hanging and the sudden silence is so contrasting that it makes you feel like the loneliest person on Earth.

i don't know what's with me. i have to sit myself down one day and think. dismantle my heart and peer closely. it's been a long while since i felt the need to do this. the explanation usually comes to me by itself. but i can't wait that long for it's arrival now. if it can't come to me, i'll go to it.

maybe it's the exams? maybe it's the stress? maybe it's thinking something all along and suddenly realising that the truth is the exact opposite? maybe it's feeling cheated?

the last time i had a near-emo post, jacq smsed to cheer me up and it really worked. mainly because i thought nobody would care. nobody tags anyway, so it really looks like nobody reads my blog but me. so i thought...

ah whatever. no use feeling this way. tomorrow will be a great day.

i hope my breakdown comes faster.

well, at least i know i'm not alone. thank God for that.