i hate it when i wake up from a nap all sweaty and bothered.

so, i've lost my hardworking streak. what's new, right? sigh. sze wing's right. i've been going out oo much lately. wednesday and thursday; lunch. friday; shopping with julia. and thus, losing three afternoons in a row. bah. sometimes i wonder if i'm abnormal. everybody's so worked up about the upcoming week because it's 'test overload', and here i am, blogging. the only work i did all day was math differentiation 4 and the heymath test. i really should be doing more work, but there's the fine line between 'should', 'could' and 'would'.

i still have
- overdued bio prac (homeostasis)
- zhou ji
- chinese summary
- 2 physics concept map
- chem worksheet (speed of reaction)
- social studies essay question

to which, i will neglect
- 2 physics concept map
- chem worksheet (speed of reaction)

the rest would be done from tonight to tomorrow night.

so, time for my weekly analysis of this week.
hm.

philosophy was good. the whole socratic seminar thing was really enjoyed by me. many of the points which were brought up are sometimes the little bits and pieces floating around in my mind.

UGH. my mom won't get me my knitted vest. and i just know how it's going to disappear and i'll never ever get to see it ever again. i'm irritated.
whatever.

well, lunchbox day was good. food was gobbled up quick. everyday should be lunchbox day, and people might just bond so much faster.

the release of o levels brought up a great sense of school pride within me. and i was so motivated to have my name on the screen. once, i was sure of myself. i don't know why. i'm quite sure of myself this year. maybe it's bad luck to say so, but i think my name would be on the screen. just a feeling. maybe i'm wrong. but it hasn't felt like it yet.
i know you're thinking --

I'M DAMN ANNOYED. SHIT THIS.

(edit)
oookay. i am a happy girl now! because i finally bought my knitted vest. :D the white shirt that came with it was a little too tight. but yeah, i got my vest!

so where was i? right.

i know you're thinking that it's highly impossible for my name to appear on that screen, especially if people like Natalie Wong Sing Yee and Choi Sze Wing are not even sure of themselves. but, like, i don't know. i just am. maybe it's confidence. maybe it's a woman's intuition? whatever. i know i'm not exactly the most hardworking person you've seen, or the one who freaks out most about tests, or the one who tears her hair out over homework, but like, i will get there.

what a load of bullshit, you're thinking. i can't convince you, i know. but as long as i know what i know and i slowly (but surely!) work towards my goal, i guess i can make it. i mean, i've made an improvement as the years slipped pass, and i know i can continue improving.

so even if i'm not doing this for me, for my school, then i'm doing it for my parents. my father was absolutely ecstatic over my chinese o's A1. and he went on to give me this OMG-TEARJERKER! speech about how i must continue to work hard for more than just A1 even though it's a good start. and how he wants to show everyone else that he raised such a smart and capable daughter. like how he wants me to do what he can't accomplish. and that i'd better excel because he doesn't want to be paying in vain. haha.

so i guess i understand why my parents are always pushing me and my siblings so hard. all my other friends' parents all went to uni and overseas and stuff like that. but my parents didn't go past the o levels. so i'm running the race for not one person, but three. and that gives me faith. it'll probably be another relief to my father because then the exorbitant school fees would stop. :D ACJC school fees are cheap, i heard from jacq.

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anyway, next week is hectic but i'm sure we'll all get through it. after all, the worse is yet to come.

Adorable Agent Audrey,
signing off!
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