just the thought of that made me not want to be human anymore.

i thought of all the stuff i would miss. the good and the bad. and i realise that being human basically just sucks.

education
global warming
medical science
science
future
how we are the mightiest of them all.

why not be a stupid and spoiled Persian cat which enjoys its short life while it can? better than what i'm living now, in many sense. friends are only one pro of the many cons.

sickened.

you know, one of the things i think about most, is about the proportion of life.

ants in singapore will never ever ever know that ants in japan exist. unless they manage to get onto a plane from singapore to japan. but would they be lucky enough to get on a plane back to singapore? we're so big to the ants. ants in singapore think that the whole world consists of the kitchens in Bukit Panjang, maybe.

what if we were like ants? what if there was a bigger existence than us, and we don't know about them but they know all about us? what if the Solar System was only a 'singapore'? we would never know of the 'japan' no matter how far we send the satellites to be.

what if there's something out there watching us make terrible mistakes?
what if they are learning from our mistakes?
what if we are the case study of dystopia they are researching about?

what if the Earth dies, but the world continues living?
what if humans die, thinking that they are heroes of the world?

there is only so much we can do. but we never stop.
maybe this is why people no longer have the will to live; why people consider death an option.
escapism and quietism.

do you understand?

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well, i'm just sayin'. :D