okay, first up is my apology for not updating. my life isn't that fabulous, but it'll manage.

(really fast) okay moving on.

i completed the five items today. did i blog about my lousy 2.4 run? guess not. ohwells. shall post up my results.
2.4 run--> 16 min 53 secs
shuttle run --> 11.0 secs
sit and reach --> 47 cm
standing broad jump --> 180 cm
sit ups --> 36
pull ups --> 12

there. stupid stupid, lousy lousy results. i'm only satisfied for my pull ups because i improved quite a bit, but it isn't even a B. gah.

i think i'll have to thank jingning for the sit and reach because she kept asking me to go further by a bit more. i did, of course, because i wanted an A so badly and i thought i wasn't even reaching 43 cm. turned out jingning was helping me. so nice of her. i got a wonderful 47cm. :D

bah. let's not talk about PFT anymore.

oh, and hey people, it's official; i didn't get into CAP. i mean, i sorta knew it all along, but now that laoshi's told me, i guess there's no false hopes anymore. i think i'm okay with not getting in. i can safely tell myself that i've tried and this was actually something that i worked hard for. i may actually love writing that much. :D

and another thing which happened to me today. see, my mom watches this cook show every weekday, from 7 to 8 in the evening. i only watch sometimes when there's baking involved because i find baking so much more nicer than cooking. anyway, the point was that i was discussing ingredients and stuff with my mom when she suddenly lectured me about the importance of science, how you can earn money via plastic surgery.

i told her bluntly that i don't agree to such artificial beauty, but she said that it didn't matter. i was quite put off by that, but then my father cut in at this point of time and said that if i really wanted to go and study baking, i could.

this surprised me because i didn't know that he was that agreeable, not to mention, incredibly nice! but i don't love baking as much as nat do. and even if i started baking now, it'll seem like i'm comforming to another trend within the school. it's not exactly true though, since i've always been fascinated with baking, only that i didn't have the means to bake. which was also why i loved going to tuition, because my tuition teacher bakes! she bakes everything, from baking her own bread to coming up with her own recipes (to which i was the guinea pig with much delight).

it was really nice of my tutor to include me in her baking whenever i went for lessons. it wasn't an all-the-time thing, so i'd always look forward to tuition, in case it was a Baking Day. :D

bttp. so my dad was like, if you like baking so much, go and study how to bake la! gogogo. then my mom was like, yeah, but you must be really good such that you become famous.

and then i just shooshed them quiet cos the commercials ended. hehheh.

but it can be quite frustrating when you have absolutely no idea what you want to be when you grow up. it's like having no purpose in life so far. even when i was young and all my friends would say that they want to be a fireman or a policeman or a vet or a doctor or a lawyer, i would think ahead and slowly strike them off. firemen have to work with fires; fires burn. policemen have to catch criminals; what if they hate you so much they want to kill you? vets have to operate on animals; no matter how much i love animals enough to want to save them, i still don't have the heart to cut them up and poke their organs. doctors; same as vets but worse! with human beings. lawyer have to speak in front of so many people; i don't want.

so you see, i'm such a pessimist in terms of ambitions. i think of all the hard work and then strike them off my list of Possible Occupations. and i still do that until today. i mean, i don't even want to be a full-time writer even though i love writing so much, mainly because it doesn't pay well.

i actually have another secret fantasy, but it's quite stupid, so i'm not going to type it out here. it's not a proper occupation either, but depending on how good you are, you can earn quite a bit out from it, i guess. but i still hope to accomplish that one day. i mean, it's the same with the publishing two books thing. ridiculous, but i'm still hoping. :D

i'm crazy about the song "That's When I Love You" because it's NICE and... for other reasons. ;)
av should know. haha.

i should be going off right about now. seeya around soonish.

lovelovelove.<3

/and i hope i don't cry when i see her again/