i started out on this post earlier and after just typing three words (of which i can't remember anymore), i remembered about blogskins.com existing. so i went to visit and checked out on all the new SOTDs and i saw this one.

it was quite freakily suitable because i immediately felt like changing my skin after seeing it. and also, i've made a decision to step out of my emo world.

i think that i should stop throwing an unneccessary tantrum and return to reality. i still feel emo sometimes, but something just jolted me to reality and suddenly, i'm filled with motivation to be happy again.

maybe it's because i went out with emily&jacq. <3

maybe it's because there're actually proper reasons to laugh in class. sze wing and natw are so funny.

maybe it's because the time to stop came.

well, so i may delete my emo blog, but i shall let it live for another few weeks, just to see if my emoness acts up or not. you won't ever guess the address and i won't ever tell you. and that makes you roll your eyes in irritation because 'why, then, do you bother even telling us about such a blog exists?'. haha, i don't know. i just can't keep secrets. and it isn't even one who someone told me specifically NOT to tell.

i don't make sense anymore. but nevermind.

my sister's at some npcc camp and i miss her already. except that i'd probably not tell her that. i'm stuck sleeping with my brother, who's nagging at me to get off the laptop because he wants me to accompany to the toilet. he's so sissy, he's afraid of the dark in his own house. hello, he is a boy.

haha, which reminds me. he actually sprained his ankle in school today! he supposedly jumped off four steps at a time (stupid immature boys who only think of playing) and he landed all wrongly, thus spraining his ankle. how stupid.

i heard from my mom that he apparently cried alot. my teacher called my mom and that retarded teacher was talking so slowly, my mom got worried for nothing. as in, she thought that my brother fell off something, when he just sprained his ankle. okay, nevermind. i'm not making sense again, right?

i didn't blog about many events, i realise. the crosscountry thing, shopping with emily&jacq, mass skipping, basketball, blahblah.

i may dedicate one whole post to the shopping trip because that was fun. we went to heeren and ran up the down escalator. HAHA. it was so scary and exciting at the same time. stupid jacq decided to go up the up escalator the last minute. and she was the one who asked us to go up the down escalator since she didn't want to walk all the way to the other escalator!

and emily calls jacq metalmouth. she called jacq and i, the blueman and the greenman, thanks very much to the awfully colourful house tshirts. we claimed that we were from Mei Gui Secondary, some unknown (and non-existant) neighbourhood school. haha.

well, my brother's SUCH A PAIN IN THE BEHIND. i can't even blog in peace. which is why i love having one room all to myself. it's usually so quiet and i can stay up late if my dad doesn't knock at my door whenever he wakes up to pee.

ahwell, it is getting late, and i do have to start sleeping. chapter 5 in fanfic tomorrow! (gaw, it'd be so weird, typing a new chapter without my sister. how ironic, realising how dependent i am on my annoying sister when she isn't here. absence makes the heart grow fonder, aye?

okays then. sleep sweet, everybody, for the world is normal again-- audrey's happy!