hello yiling! havent heard from you for quite some time, but yay, we'll see each other on monday! :D

you know, whenever i remember that i have white teeth, i cant help but grin. yay. i feel so much prettier now. not that i am. but 'growing with confidence' is important, no? i think i may be buying lip ice to care for my lips.

haha. the holsies are so boring, but when i now have a goal, it doesnt look as boring anymore! my goal is to 'grow with confidence'! taking care of my lips, complexion, teeth, hair, skin. really, it works wonders. makes an ugly girl like me feel pretty! yay all!

haha but then again, i feel that i am going overboard with all this 'growing with confidence' thing. i brush my teeth like, what, five times a day?! but i cant help it. everytime im done with a meal, i HAVE to brush my teeth, or i keep thinking that my yellow teeth will come back.

boohoo. i think i'll take a while for my insecurities to go away completely.

oh, on a totally irrelevant note, my mom totally surprised me yesterday when she asked if i wanted to go for church camp.

the first thought that came to my head was 'but im not a christian!'

but then i remembered that my mom used to work in a christian kindergarden, so obviously, she would want me to go church-camping. she can also use the chance to see all her ex-colleagues.

i still remember the last time i went to church camp. it was at the same kindergarden and i was stil very young. this may be ego of me to say, but i was a favourite amongst the teachers in charge of my group. for one, i was the youngest. secondly, they were somehow fascinated by my good memory (back then). they would give me presents just to remember the weirdest things.

like they would want me to remember their names (yes, this is SO weird.) and gave me a mirror when i did. and then they also wanted me to remember how God created the world in seven days (i dont remember now. O.O) and gave me a pair of binoculars.

it was kinda cute la, thinking back. but shivers. i am not going back this time. especially, alone?! nah.

andandand, you know how i always sit up straight and attentively whenever FeiLunHai comes on the tv? once, my mom saw that and said, "woah, last time when you like jolin, i thought you were lesbian. good thing now you like boyband. at least, prove that you're normal."

i grabbed my brother's pillow and threw it at her.

how can i ever be a lesbian? so gross! i may like jolin and is antiboy, but that does NOT mean that i am a lesbian.

never.

ever.

case closed!