callooh, callay, oh frabjous day!

it's finally finally the holidays!

(they rhyme!)

...

wells, that was what i PLANNED to start this blogpost with. but i visited quite a number of blogs before this and noticed that they were all sad with goodbyes.

now, i normally would tell myself that i shouldnt go with the flow blindly. and anyways, after all the goodbye blogposts, someone would have to cheer all the blogders up, right?

so yupps, i take it upon myself to be that someone. but, really, it's sad. especially at this point of time when people are flying off to nj and 2g may never be back together as a class again.

and so, audrey's goodbye post starts now (think emo.):

as i have said before, i was pretty motivated during the psle, because i wanted to graduate and go to a secondary school. i was very very despo. i wanted to start a new life, with more friends and that i wouldnt quite be as invisible as i used to be.

when i found out i got into mgs, i was estactic. so very happy. i couldnt wait for the first day of school to arrive.

but as that day neared, i got nervous. what if my new classmates didnt like me? am i really destined to be forever unseen by others?

first day of school, during introductions, i was totally not the old audrey.

i sounded happyish, or at least tried to. i tried to make people think that i'm a very happy person, one who makes friends very easily. but really, i wasnt.

i thought that i would be okay for me to do that because they dont know the old audrey. i was able to start anew. but let me tell you, some people were downright rude (yupps, in 1g, gasp!) when i approached them. their face was practically screaming 'get away from me you freak! i dont know you!'

nevertheless, i pressed on, not wanting to give up on the hope of being seen. i wanted to be someone who had many many friends she could go to.

over the few months, i morphed into someone 180 degrees different than who i really used to be.

ask jingning. she saw the whole change in me, i'll bet.

i guess, in some ways, im happy as who i am now. i now have many friends within my class who i can have fun with. i am now seen.

everytime i enter the class in the morning, i can't help but smile in the inside. here, was a fantastic class. and i'm a part of it. we laugh together, learn together, and now, it's time we cry together.

laoshi gave a speech yesterday and when her voice broke, so did the thread of my tears. a teacher crying? that's not something you see everyday. especially if those tears were for us. i cried, sad that there has to be a day where we all go our different ways.

all good things have to come to an end.

considering how this 'good thing' is so much more GREAT, im not surprised that it ended so much earlier.

i'll cherish the two years together with 2g with all my heart. it has seen me through a great deal. it brought me wonderful friends and equally wonderful teachers. goodbyes are always hard. but really, i'd rather have difficult goodbyes with awesome friends, than a indifferent goodbye with strangers.

we're all in this 2gether.

and we'll always be.