im back again, m'dears and you're probably pissed at me for blogging so much, but then again, you won't cos i dont know, my blog's too entertaining?

haha. ok, i shall spare you all the egoness, since we all have to go through jacq everyday. q:

so i was talking to eeleng online and then she gave me the url of arron's blog and it totally made me fall in love with him all over again.

(dont worry, yiling. he's still yours.)

wait. i think i need a disclaimer.

[disclaimer: the following is about audrey's dream guy and if you want to read (which im pretty sure you want to) please go on, but really, try not to tease her in any way. all efforts appreciated.]

yes! and now i shall proceed.

i read his post and they were all so meaningful and melancholy. i dont know. he really has a way with words. but then again, maybe all taiwanese people do. but i dont care. not all taiwanese look cool.

like, okay. i like the cool guy kinda type. elaboration coming up.

i like guys who look cool, you know, real-cool, not act-cool. and even if you want to act, also act abit more cool, not ah beng. tsk. that kind of cool is not my kind of cool.

anyways, it's an added bonus if they're cool and, you know, a little sad/depressed.

that kind who always look on the dark side of life?

i dont know why. maybe opposite attracts, or i just watch too much tv. haha. yupps, i mean, won't you feel accomplished and happy if a cool and depressed guy, after knowing you, changed into a cool and happy guy?

and i've always wanted to be seen as a happy and hyper girl. okay, who has an ardent passion for pink. maybe ugly, but happy.

so, i like cool-depressed kinda guys and would love to be able to cheer them up. but i dont think i would ever go into a relationship.

it's just wrong to see me with a guy. especially someone i like, because no matter how much i know i'm ugly, appearance is still a factor to me. so i will like handsome guys, but handsome guys won't like me, and so, me will be forever single!

and i'm okay with that, because i guess my goal in life is to be happy and to make others happy. however, if it means making me unhappy in order to make someone else happy, i may and may not do it, depending on its severity.

like if a guy likes me but i dont like him, i won't go together with him in order to make him happy. however, if say, emily's happy going to nj, but duh i'll be sad, but i'd just let her go.

(okay, BTTP- back to the point)

yupps. so arron, is by far, the person who suits my criteria, but yet i dont really know know him and he's all the way in taiwan so i can't cheer him up, but still. haha. a girl can dream!

and i can imagine yiling nodding her head, smiling away. haha. so cute.

sigh. i hope i dream of feilunhai and yiling again. so so COOL!

teehee. i think i better go now, too much to juggle already.

i'm currently blogging (like, this.), talking to emily, ning, eeleng online and trying to watch princess hours on youtube. :D